3 Boys

Adus.

Sakit hati betul.

Kenapa?

Aku jatuh cinta... lagi...

Kalau dah 'head over heels' untuk seorang lelaki saja x kesah tapi masalahnyer aku dah gila angau kat 3 jejaka cute lagi menawan hati. Physically, they're not that attractive. I've always been attracted to the looks. Always the looks but now it has changed. They're in the passable category. What they have in common is the cute personality that makes me go "lalalala!"

0.o

What the hell is wrong with you, hadiyati?!

I'm not the type to fall in love easily let alone confess to the internet world that I'm in love! It's like by posting this into my blog, it'll be like confessing that I like them. I'm not going to tell them that I like them for sure. I have a reputation to take care of. I'm too damn shy. They constantly pop into my train of thoughts when I least expected it. When someone mentions sekolah petang, I'll remember him (number 1) and sigh stupidly. When someone mentions kelas bawah, I'll remember him (number 2) and leaped with joy. And when someone mentions leader (number 3); my heart will freaking jumpstart and accelerate F1 STYLE.

So yeah... 3 guys... 3 different reactions.


Let me detailed it up a bit. I met them all in a kursus/kem. A dead giveaway. I don't care cuz my blog is a naked island.

+_+

What I mean is there's no one reading it! Haha.

And here's the worst/best part of these 3 guys...

BACKGROUND DIFFERENCE!

Number 1

Age - 14 yrs old
Looks - cute and cheeky (passable)
Personality - childlike, somewhat romantic, caring.
Interraction rate - akward but funny texts and a bit of online chatting. 4 stars.

Number 2

Age - 16 yrs old
Looks - hawty and bubbly (passable)  Dude.. he's tall. I like tall guys.
Personality - funny, straightforward, honest.
Interraction rate - awkward as hell but really heart fluttering. 2 stars.

Number 3

Age - 17 yrs old
Looks - sometime he's hot, sometime's he's not (passable) Cheeky!
Personality - damn funny, sarcastic, open, daring, brave somewhat, charismatic.
Interaction rate - shit! All we did was group chatting! And it was damn short! 2 stars.

What The Hell?

I'm coding people. No, I'm coding my crushes. WTF? This is what you get when you have nothing better to do other than dream stupid fantasies of your crushes.

Nice, Hadi. You're really smart, you know that?

I don't really see them that much. I stalk them. Creepy. I know. Number 1? Nope. I don't stalk him. He's too young and it's weird. We text each other. We kinda have this "Kakak angkat, Adik angkat" relationship. Ok ke? Tak mengganggu ekosistem dunia? Uhh... kaitannya? haha.

Number 2? Well, terus terang ak suka kat die sebab die tinggi. Ak memang cair kat org yang lebih tinggi dari aku. Laki la.. Lagi tinggi lagi bagus tapi jangan la terlampau tinggi pulak.. x cun. Die ni agak lawak and cuz sebaya xde la awkward sgt kawan ngan die. I don't stalk him because there's no reason to. Number 1 said number 2 likes me. Siap tanye lagi tu... hah! Perasan la Hadi.. Entah2 ko kene tipu...

Number 3? I.. well.. stalking? Kinda.. I get obsessed with boys easily. Especially with someone like him. Aku takleh nak explain macam mane ak leh tertarik kat mamat cam die ni... hensem ke die? X. Biasa je.. lelaki melayu normal.. Tinggi? Ok Ok je. Personality die rasenyer. Waktu rehat aku selalu cari die. Nampak bayangan die pon jadila. Tapi, perasaan guilty mesti muncul kalau aku tetibe rase suka kat si dia sebab dia ni abang kawan aku. I have a "no crush/date a friend's brother" policy. Susah. Abaikan jela policy gila tu. Asalkan aku suka.

Kronik la aku ni. Memang betul kata orang. 16 adalah umur cinta monyet.

What should I do? Don't even try to advice me into forgetting them because I tried and failed. They're just too damn appealing!

Bodoh.

Aku memang bodoh.

Dah kronik.

Number 1,2 and 3...

Sigh... *stupidly...

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